momma said there'd be days like this...

If you came here expecting a wonderful I'm soo thankful for everything post.... you'll have to wait because more pressing maters are at hand! .... no one told me the terrible twos start at 13 months... I'm sure a lot of this has to do with the fact that we are way outside our comfort zone and have been dealing with 9 hour car rides, not so ideal hotel living, and now finally settling in to a rented house and new town/state until hubby work here is done... On top of all this add on teething, tantrums, trying to find my way around everywhere, and extremely dry skin and you have your selves a very stressed and overwhelmed momma..


As much as I'm deeply involve with this little girl there are times i just want to lock her in a closet bury my face in a pillow and scream and cry...and i ALWAYS, ALWAYS, ALWAYS,  feel guilty for feeling like that .. i wanted and prayed for a Lil baby for so long and God has been so amazing and answered our prayers and gave us an amazing little thing...but sometimes i just wanna scream at the top of my lungs esp with these new temper tantrums she has been doing... all of this and being in a new place just makes me homesick and wanna guzzle a bottle of wine.
They are over everything and nothing at all. straws, going outside,setting her down,picking her up, not letting her climb and stand up in a shopping cart & i find myself giving in to desperate situations like these and shoving mickey mouse clubhouse in her face because sometimes the only cure is mickey.. i know I'm awful..


With the that being said I'm gonna suck it up and try to make the best of our time here and try my best to find my way around here and not just go to target everyday( well maybe just a few times a week, because lets face it mickey mouse might be here comfort zone but mine is target... ) because i have to i can't just sit here all day and drowned in my own pity party i have a baby and i have to teach her to be strong and face new things, do things you don't wanna do, be optimistic & don't let the tantrums get you down..


xo,