Motherhood & Baby blues

When me and my husband were trying to have a baby it was a very long and difficult process and when it finally happened I was at a place in my life and head that if it didn't ever happen I would be ok because we had a great life together. We had been together almost 11 years before I got pregnant and when we found out we couldn't be more happy. 

People always tell you when your pregnant " your life is going to  change forever" and it is true and apart from the obvious changes people don't always tell you about the things in life you don't expect to change...  Things like it now takes you an hour just get get out the door to run to the store instead of just grabbing your wallet and keys, you have to schedule your life around one tiny person who eats sleeps & poops on a timed schedule and all things revolve around those times. 

Those summer BBQ's that you have every weekend with friends & girls nights are no longer care free and full of margaritas, it's baby's bed time is 7:30 and I can't drink because I don't wanna pump & dump that liquid gold milk that is such a pain to make... Friends lives go on without you while your at home taking care of your precious little new love and
sometimes it feels like they might have forgot about you or they are to busy and you feel Lonely and miss that girl time & gossip. Weather it's baby blues or just morning the loss of your former life it's hard and they say it's ok , we understand ,  things will get easier , in the meantime you have your hormones trying to get back to normal and trying not to lock yourself in a closet with a screaming teething baby..

Obviously there are the good changes that comes with a new life..

 Experiencing things in a whole new way and unconditional love from someone who doesn't even know how to walk or talk yet let alone even understand what love means. 

It's a best friend forever through good times and bad because she is stuck with me for the rest if her life.. 

a new shopping buddy and someone to laugh and grow with because you both have no clue what your doing and she loves you even if you have baby spit up running down the back of your shirt and didn't have time to brush your teeth.

like dancing around with your friends looking like a drunken idiot are now changed to dancing around your baby just trying to hear that cute little laugh and giggles. (not that i was this huge party girl)   

i used to get so excited over new shoes and pretty makeup but now its new teeth and baby gap sales and the look on her face when she first wakes up in the morning and sees me and gets the biggest smile on her face

its someone to snuggle with when I'm feeling those baby blues because I wouldn't trade her for all the margaritas and gossip in the world.